Summer Art School

     Hey! I'm back! it's been awhile since I last posted! I'm 17 now(a totally uneventful age) and I finished my junior year of high school with almost straight A's and one B! That is a lot better compared to last year! You all may have noticed that I had a post of Megan Fox and I ask you to please disregard that, I needed to get to a picture of Megan Fox in school for a game board project.
      The most interesting thing in my life right now is that I was accepted out of hundreds of applicants (along with 6-7 others) to participate in a summer art school at a college! Today we will be driving out and I'm terrified. I've never been away from home so long and this academy is from tomorrow to June 27th. The thought of my friend not being right there beside me is troubling to say the least. I'm sorta used to my parents and they are driving me up the wall right now so it's a little relief in some ways. It is still a major step toward independence though. Having to live alone with only yourself to remind you of chores. I hope it goes well and I don't fall flat on my face!

Sink

Things to come!

Class time, Pass time

     It's Friday in Classical Mythology and I don't have much to do. I typed my essay prior to the class, when I was supposed to, so I'm using this time to catch whatever readers I have up on latest events.

     When I last posted I was having problems with public speaking. Since then I've become more comfortable in presenting and I even sort of enjoy impressing people with a poem or scaring them. My writing has greatly improved as well. Words are coming easier and I don't have to think as hard to make something sound good.

     I would like to interject now that i have a pulsating headache on the back right side of my head, if anyone as any quick fixes without medication please reply them! 

    Continuing on the subject of current happenings, I found my Nintendo DS games which had been lost for a period of time. Im so excited to start up where I left off and raise an unbeatable dream team of my favorite Pokemon. 

    Now to get even more geeky, I am really enjoying LARP. Yes thats right, Live Action Role Playing. I am a Woodland Nymph named Jane Fairyring. The story is once I was a good nymph protecting the forest and helping travelers. Then I slept through spring and my mind was corrupted with fungus. Now I am bipolar evil and good Nymph but I lean toward the evil side. Mainly I lean toward bad because then the sides even up in our group truly my character prefers free for all fun wandering. Which was scary, because last time because I got horribly lost. So technically I haven't played yet because I was late to the first meeting and the next one I got lost for the entirety of the game, which ironically got my group a win.
    Thats all for now, comment as you please, also, sink painting to come(boring).

XY

    I'm amped for the new Pokemon games coming out! The starters actually look decent! I'm debating on which starter to get. I already have a Seismatoad so even though the water type looks cool it may be a little too many frogs for me. And who's happy they're throwing gen 1 and 3 pokes in there too! Thank you Nintendo! I thought if I was going to have to fight anything remotely similar to a snow cone ever again that might be it for me and pokemon. However, I shall officially decide when I see the new additions to the Pokedex.

     Also, wish me luck tomorrow! I'm presenting a poem to the class. Please let my glasses idea work!

Grounded....

     I have been grounded....Only temporarily though, and I'm still allowed on the computer. Just  minutes left. Oh, how it pains me to be cut off from the world! However, I suppose it allows me to really submerge myself in this post. I've been kind of neglecting this blog for the past few months with the world happening all around me.

    This half of the school year has brought new challenges amoungst opportunities. My two end classes of the day are now Classical Mythology with some of my friends and people I know but haven't been aquainted with yet, and I also have Creative Writing with my boyfriend at the end of the day which is a nice freeing class at the end of the day. Hopefully this will lead to me writing posts that aren't so painful to read for you! Unfortunately, it seems I've rediscovered my phobia of public speaking. I can talk really loud and be bold when I'm seated but it seems like whenever I have to stand and people are listening to what I'm saying, I break down. My hands and body begin to shake, my skin goes numb, the color washes from my face or I turn firetruck red, then my heart quivers from my chest into my throat and my voice goes quiet and my eyes start watering and everyone is watching me either pitying me or annoyed I'm wasting their time with my panic attack. It drives me insane! I rationalize it out and tell myself there is no reason to be afraid, they aren't even really listening anyways, but I still break down the moment I stand and all eyes go on me. No need to fear though! I have come up with multiple strategies to perhaps trick myself into not noticing them. One is to take off my glasses since I'm nearly blind then i can just imagine them as giant blobs of putty or jackets. However, the flaw of this plan is I will have to hold the paper directly in front of my face to read it. So, with that idea out the roof, maybe asking to just remain seated or pull up a chair in the middle of the room and sit to cut down on the nerves. They are theories to be tested the next time we have to read to the class. Wish me luck!

Also before I sign off, here is my bad poem about the frustration of getting grounded.

I had to say something.
Her obnoxious voice carried throughout the room,
Smothering all peace and calm.

My eye began twitching,
My teeth started gritting,
My mouth finally snapping at her for her ignorance.

Of course she didn't undestand my reason,
So I am forced to sit here alone...
Without a phone....